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Moving. Again

Blessings on you all.

This is the 3rd time I’m moving this year.

The first time was moving my stuff out of my childhood (and parts of my adulthood) home. Quite painful. We had to sell it. Thankfully I had many weeks to do the moving, which meant I had time to process emotionally, and could properly say goodbye. It was difficult.

The second time was a couple of weeks ago, moving from my office to another space where I would have no privacy. This again meant loss of space and having to throw many things out.

Now I’m moving from my rental to my 1st co-op (yay!). But, I’m still throwing things out. This whole thing is difficult, throwing things out. Deciding. Letting go. And moving spaces.

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Master’s Graduation

I graduated in May 2021 from NYU Steinhardt School of Education with a Master’s of Higher Education and Student Affairs (woot woot!!!). Because of the pandemic, we didnt actually hold a ceremony till one full year later in May 2022. Now another year later July 2023 I am posting this video from the 2022 celebration of my 2021 graduation 😆

NYU recorded this and sent this clip to me. Great job. Helps me feel super proud 🙂

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Allowing the Flow of Sadness to Allow the Flow of Happiness

“If you never let yourself feel sad, how do you ever feel happy?”

-Punky Brewster (episode 1)

I have found this to be true: You cannot selectively numb emotions. You cant just say “I’m going to avoid feeling pain so I can always feel happy” – they come hand-in-hand. Like a flow, flowing through you.

I think the healthiest is when we can allow that flow, even the flow of pain. It is said that suffering is resistance to pain.

So the point here being: perhaps pain is inevitable, and that flow which allows pain is required to also allow happiness. When you restrict the flow, to avoid pain, you cause suffering. Allowing pain is healthy; a pure pain is a cleansing pain, and even may incorporate pure beauty. A stifled, blocked pain can lead to the blocking of other healthy emotions, including happiness.

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Luck is the Residue of Design

“Luck is the residue of design”

– Predestination (movie)

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Be Loved

At a loss for public words.

My heart aches.

Be loved.

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What You Are Looking For is Already Here

Thoughts, reflection on a message from the inner deep. In the midst of self-wallowing about being lonely, single and wanting, a message that came to me again, saying: “What you are looking for is already here.” Not as in I’m going to manifest something. Rather, it is about becoming aware of what is here already.

With Love.

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Been feeling lonely the last few weeks/month. But I think I am doing the right thing overall. And I am really proud that I am going through this without depending on numbing effects. And I am grateful for my wholesome thinking and feeling, in general, these days.

So, when you are sacrificing, but doing the best you can, or so, then take solace in that you are doing everything you can, as best as you know how. That is something to be PROUD of. Not pride as in an egotistical detachment from the world and others, but proud as in honorable, and inherently spiritual…work towards/with/for the whole.

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Straightedge – No Substances

Just wanted to share, that it seems like I will be required to be mostly straightedge. Maybe a little portion of a hookah every once in a blue might be ok, but even that I dont know.

  • I cannot smoke cigarettes because even one now will create in me a hacking coughing fit
  • I cannot drink alcohol because even one sip may cause me to binge where I become a danger to the lives of myself and others
  • I cannot smoke weed, because the last two times I broke my abstinence from marijuana I became extremely emotionally distraught, where I am at risk of wanting to leave this world.

Looks like this leaves me with tea and hot sauce 🙂

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I Cannot Wait for Others to Accept Me. I Must Accept Myself

I cannot wait for others to accept me. I must accept myself.

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Everyone Has Their Own Path

Everyone has their own Path

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No matter what, Life can change for the better, starting from right Now

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a Poem to Grateful

If I stop and think of How my Life is Freely given to me. I don’t know how to earn it, I don’t know of it being bought or earned. I’m Freely here, and I don’t know when its going to end.

And how valuable this is. How divine, gratefulness naturally arises

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Personal Production

My production, where is it going?

My effort represents personal production towards existence with every moment.

If I have high production and it is steered always good energy, your effort of direction, toward the good, gains you reward and padding of good vibration. Even if your current feelings mismatch.

Add gratefulness and humility so you keep the desire for good

And Faith

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No matter how far and advanced we get, it seems like we always have some falling to “look forward to.”

…another chance to learn….

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Which Values Do I Value? It’s A Path I Choose

Which values do I Value? It’s a Path I Choose

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this will work out somehow

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The situation can change. Anything can happen right now. You never know.

Think positive, pull positive, and the likelihood of things changing for the positive increases

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Desire The Good Thing

Desire The Good Thing

How do I desire the good thing?

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the false ego wants power

the natural being arrives at Grace naturally

 

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If You Are Going To Do Something, Do It Good

If You Are Going To Do Something, Do It Good

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Everything Moves At Its Own Pace

Everything moves at its own pace.

If you observe nature, both living and “non”, you notice everything has a time, seasons, currents, and its own way.

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Faith is Your Ground

Faith is your ground.

It is what you look at.

When you are unsure,

look down

You are standing on Rock

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Mistakes are an Opportunity for Unconditional Love

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I’m doing the Best

Thing I can Do

Therefore the Best

Thing will Happen

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Everything Is Connected

 

Everything is connected therefore everything you do affects everything