Theres so much out there to explore.
Then again, theres so much in here to be grateful for.
This year 2016 I have been straightedge. This means no substances, such as tobacco, alcohol or THC. I am trying to make it through the rest of this year this way, which would be a miracle for me. I dont know if I could ever believe it except for the fact that I’m actually doing it.
I still feel the pull to alcohol sometimes. When I get lonely, or am exasperated by feeling stuck, or not knowing what direction to take, or what the heck I’m doing at the moment, I can feel the pull to put it all away for a bit with a drink.
But, I cant. I cannot drink again. Any more. Ever.
Not a sip. Nothing. Nada.
Ever. Ever. Again. Never. Ever. Ever. Never.
Please help me to stay sober, today. And all todays.
I’m very happy that when the speaker of this talk asked “What do you need to get to be happy?”, I said “nothing.”
The word “get” triggered that this would be a dependency, and, I dont believe I need a dependency for happiness.
There may be situations that help, but no matter what, happiness is accessible, I think.
Easy for me to say in my apartment, secure, safe, warm, healthy, loved, ambitious, alive, and vibrant.
But, Thank God, it is easy for me to say.