The gamble of alcohol is just too much of a risk. I can have 20 times that I drink and everything works out well, I make people laugh, and have productive time. But the close calls are just too close. If I lost the gamble, I am completely screwed, and it’s a different life.
If the odds are 80% good night drinking, and 20% very bad night drinking, I cant afford to have a bad night drinking. It’s a game I cant even play.