It doesnt matter if a hundred, a thousand, or a million people have not accomplished what you dream of doing, they are not you. They have completely different lives, experiences, thoughts, and actions. Their shortcomings have no bearing on you, because this is your life, your story, your journey. Their story is done, yours is still being written. And you are the writer. You.
You are always affecting yourself, and your surroundings. Everytime you do, or dont do something, you are directly causing the results you experience.
not in control of my life
You are the decision maker. Whether you like it or not, that’s the deal. All decisions about your life fall ultimately square on your shoulders.
dont have the right to do what I want to do
Hey, this is your ilfe. Nobody else can live it for you. Not your parents, not your teachers, not your friends, not your kids. Exclusive rights to do what you want, belongs to you. Your life, your rights.
dont deserve to be happy.
You damn skippy you deserve to be happy. Why not? Why would someone else deserve happiness, and not you? As far as we can tell, every happy person on this planet is still a human being, just like you. They are the same species as you. If they can be happy, so can you. If they have the right, so do you.
t change things
Of course you can. People have been changing things throughout recorded human history. People have changed things about themselves, things about others, and things about the world. Society would still be living in caves, building fires every night, if humans couldn’t change. You are the same as everyone else in that respect, you can change things.
only do so much
Yes, you can. And you can do even more than that. There is no limit to what you can accomplish. The only limits that exist are the ones you accept. Every “limit” has its answer, its resolution. Its antidote.