Author: ojinoto

Trying to do good. Born and raised and living in NYC.

1 Year Without Drinking Alcohol

Post author By ojinoto
Post date May 21, 2013
No Comments on 1 Year Without Drinking Alcohol

I’ve just completed my first year completely free from any alcohol ingestion.

I somehow do not feel as proud to say this as I thought I would. It’s actually humbling, bringer of humility. It’s not that I don’t want to drink, it’s that I feel I cant. I am scared for my Life, literally.

I am so grateful to have this year. I had doubted myself many times on my ability to remain alcohol free. And then I had this dream last year. And it was frightening enough, real enough, possible enough to convince me my next drink could and would be catastrophic for the personal safety of myself and others.

And so I’m here, 1 year later, somehow not having drank. Amazed and thankful at the grace that has brought me to today in this way.

I thought I would be full of gusto and pride at this 1year mark. Instead, I am humbled…there is no vanquished foe. I am choosing not to battle. I am choosing not to gamble.

I have fought with the entity before, a larger-than monster that I introduce to the Sword of Imbibing. Sometimes I would walk or run or stumble away feeling victorious. I faced it and showed my ability and had a good time and still had Life and limbs. Sometimes I would come out of the battle with an injured dignity, or injured relationships; the entity knows how to inflict injury. So far everything has been salvageable.

Now, it is not me galloping into the arena, jumping off the horse with sword aimed at the entity. No. I do not want to gamble here anymore with Life and death.

I lay the sword down, and walk around the entity, leaving it to look at me as I walk. I don’t know how long it looks, or what it does after, because as I walk around it…

I look away.

Help me, to remain sober and free of alcohol.

Thank you

Tags abstinence, anniversary, sobriety

Chillin Quotes

Post author By ojinoto
Post date May 9, 2013
No Comments on

“This young woman knew that she would die in the next few days. But when I talked to her she was cheerful in spite of this knowledge. ‘I am grateful that fate has hit me so hard,’ she told me. ‘In my former life I was spoiled and did not take spiritual accomplishments seriously.’ Pointing through the window of the hut, she said, ‘This tree here is the only friend I have in my loneliness.’ Through that window she could see just one branch of a chestnut tree, and on the branch were two blossoms. ‘I often talk to this tree,’ she said to me. I was startled and didn’t quite know how to take her words. Was she delirious? Did she have occasional hallucinations? Anxiously I asked her if the tree replied. ‘Yes.’ What did it say to her? She answered, ‘It said to me, “I am here–I am here–I am life, eternal life.” ‘ ”

-Viktor E. Frankl Man’s Search for Meaning

Tags eternity, peace, universal

Quotes In Person

Post author By ojinoto
Post date April 26, 2013
No Comments on

“Sometimes you literally have to grab yourself by the collar and pick yourself up.

The secret is momentum. Once you start you keep going. You dont stop.”

-Tashan

Tags spark

Chillin

When You Get Down, Get Up

Post author By ojinoto
Post date April 25, 2013
No Comments on When You Get Down, Get Up

when you get down, get up

Tags determination, focus

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date April 24, 2013
No Comments on

You are a unique combination of potential. Everything is a potential, if it is a potential on the subatomic layer

Tags infinite, possibility

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date April 24, 2013
No Comments on

You make the decision about who you’re going to be

Right there, an important decision means who you’re going to be

Tags determinism, grow, self direction

Interconnectivity

Remember Your Goal

Remember your Goal, and always look for,

be open to opportunities for the next step.

Activates Law of Attraction

Tags allowing, focus, law of attraction, LOA, openness

Chillin Inserts

Faith is Your Ground

Faith is your ground.

It is what you look at.

When you are unsure,

look down

You are standing on Rock

Tags belief, consistency, foundation, solid

Inserts

Mistakes are an Opportunity for Unconditional Love

Post author By ojinoto
Post date April 13, 2013
No Comments on Mistakes are an Opportunity for Unconditional Love

Tags acceptance, allowing, patience

Using The Brain

Your Thought Vessel

These are the thoughts that appear in your awareness. They affect you greatly, how you act, how you progress. They affect your perspective, which creates the canvass for your world.

When you say “I suck at this” or “I’m not good enough”, if you feel and believe what you are saying, you brain makes it so. Your brain will work and work constantly to build you into what you wish (think), it truly is the greatest muscle.

Normal muscles go only in so many directions, but the brain can take you to anywhere you tell it to.

To improve you must remove all negative influences in your life. They each are like holes in your vessel, no matter how small, they work only to impede your progress. The strongest, quickest most reliable vessel is the one with a solid hull; stable, whole, able to master the greatest of storms encountered. Every hole will work to impede you, no matter the size or shape. You must repair each one.

No matter how big or small, all sources of negativity must be replaced with objects/sources of growth.

Tags mind, positivity

Quotes

Post author By ojinoto
Post date March 28, 2013
No Comments on

“If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away.”

-Henry David Thoreau

Tags acceptance, individuality, understanding

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date March 21, 2013
No Comments on

With Faith comes natural appreciation.

Without Faith, anything you do

does not look as valuable to you

Tags faith, perspective

Chillin

I AM CHANGING THIS PLANET

Post author By ojinoto
Post date March 18, 2013
No Comments on I AM CHANGING THIS PLANET

THRU THE NOW

Tags change, power, presence, present

Chillin

Your Heart Is Good

Tags acceptance, spirit

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date March 11, 2013
No Comments on

Everything changes

In which direction will you take it?

Tags choice, direction, evolving

Quotes In Person

Post author By ojinoto
Post date March 11, 2013
No Comments on

Focus

Determination

Positive Thinking

–Paola Andrea

Tags inevitability, success

Chillin

Thank You

Tags gratitude

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date February 28, 2013
No Comments on

If you have strong enough

Faith, anything can

happen, right now,

in this moment,

regardless of what

is occurring

Tags faith, now, possibility

Musica

I Hope You Dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances, but they’re worth taking
Loving might be a mistake, but it’s worth making
Don’t let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
I hope you dance
Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder, where those years have gone

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance
Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder, where those years have gone

–Lee Ann Womack

This is a beautiful song

Tags mom, song

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date February 9, 2013
No Comments on

Faith and fear eat eachother. It’s up to you to decide who eats who.

Tags belief, determination

Chillin

You are a vessel. What will you fill yourself with?

Post author By ojinoto
Post date January 31, 2013
No Comments on You are a vessel. What will you fill yourself with?

beaker

Tags emptiness, fultillment, Karma, self improvement

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date January 31, 2013
No Comments on

Everyone has a different path, a different route

Tags direction, pace, self direction

Chillin

Post author By ojinoto
Post date January 31, 2013
No Comments on

Even when things are frustrating, organizing the next steps feels good

Tags course, organization

Quotes In Person

Post author By ojinoto
Post date January 23, 2013
No Comments on

Who cares what people think – All that Matters is what’s in your Heart ♥

–Paola Andrea

Tags authenticity, heart, integrity, Paola Andrea

Quotes

Post author By ojinoto
Post date January 17, 2013
No Comments on

“The fewer words, the better prayer”

-Martin Luther

Tags focus, God, pray

Quotes

Post author By ojinoto
Post date January 9, 2013
No Comments on

“An easy and luxurious existence does not train men to effort or encounter with difficulty; nor does it awaken that consciousness of power which is so necessary for energetic and effective action in life.”

-Samuel Smiles